Big corp...Am i ready for it. PART 4

After nearly 4 years at big corp, what did i get??
Question to myself what did i achieved and learn?
What i have done to make myself proud of?

Hmmmmm...
Did i achieved or done anything i proud of?

Here,i learn something that is emotional.Learning to control my emotional,control my temper,control to let thing go,control the way i speak and communicate.
So many thing i need to be pretend and to make others happy.
I have to be others side of myself when in this office.
How life is so difficult.

Learning to communicate.
communicate with colleagues whether is my superior or same par level with me,with others dept staff, with secretary etc
Is not easy but once they know who we are,they are all ok.
The only one not ok is our own colleagues.
Don't believe..you will experience it. Believe me.

After all, you must be strong to fight of the emotional, politics in office, have strong patience, have quick learning attitude.

Ilmu Hitam

Hari ini satu lagi kisah ilmu hitam diceritakan oleh seseorg (sy namakan Az)kepada saya.
Sedih, marah, kecewa, simpati dan mcm perasaan ada.
Sedih kerana masih ada manusia yg berfikiran kolot dan bermata duitan.
Percayakah masih ada manusia yg berfikiran bekerja dgn kerajaan adalah satu penghormatan wlpn cuma jadi tukang sapu?
Hanya kerana menantu lelaki bkn bekerja dgn kerajaan dituduhnya menantu yg tidak pandai dan kahwin dgn anaknya kerana hendak menumpang kesenangan.
Almaklum lah..anak kerja jururawat gaji sebulan RM5k.
Difahamkan, mak mertua menggunakan ilmu hitam dari kalangan org asli yg dipanggil

sakai

utk memisahkannya
Mungkin sudah ditakdir hari ini terbuka hatinya utk bercerita dgn saya.
Nasib sempat jumpa saya kerana, kata Az dia hmpr jumpa dgn bomoh sakai utk minta pulangkan apa yg bekas mak mertua buat pada keluarganya.
Kerana panas hati,mmg sudah dia teringin nak buat mcm itu.Balas balik.
Kisahnya, sudah 5 thn mereka berpisah. Bekas isteri tidak pernah balik jumpa anak-anak yg seramai 4 org. anak paling kecik masa ditinggalkan berumur setahun 8 bulan. Betapa sedih,kecewa dan panas hati AZ bila mengenangkannya.
Kata AZ,selama 11 thn berkahwin tiada masalah hatta pergaduhan.secara tiba2 isterinya berubah.

8 bulan isterinya tidak balik umah.balik sekali sekala.bila balik minta cerai.itu kemuncaknya.
Bila isterinya minta cerai,AZ tidak mahu, isterinya menumbuk mukanya smpi bibir pecah berdarah, hempas HP di jalan raya dan hampir memecahkan cermin keta dgn pengunci kereta.
Apa yg tidak kena dgn isterinya yg tiba2 mengamuk?

Dah beribu dihabiskan dan ramai2 sgt bomoh dan ahli agama AZ jumpa.
Bomoh semua tarik diri kerana katanya ilmu yg digunakan pada isterinya adalah terlalu tinggi dan kebal.
Saya cuma boleh nasihatkan AZ..lupakan dia,terima hakikat dan maafkan mereka.
Sampai masa nnt, Tuhan akan turunkan balasannya.

AZ kata mmg ada byk org suruh buat itu ini tapi satu saja saya tau, ilmu sakai bkn senang nk lawan tanpa hati yg bersih dan ilmu agama yg kuat. Tidak perlu membalas balik perbuatan mereka.

Kata AZ dia masih mengharapkan bekas isterinya kembali pada dia demi anak2 dan kerana dia percaya bekas isteri tidak sedar apa yg berlaku kerana dikawal jin.

Apa saya boleh kata, 11 thn bukan singkat masanya...anak dah 4.Walau mcm mana pun kasih sayang masih ada.

Kenapa manusia perlu smpi menggunakan ilmu hitam?
Tidak kah ibunya hendak melihat anak2 bahagia?
Tidak kah dia ingat Tuhan itu ada?

Big corp...Am i ready for it. PART 3

Open space working environment?
Are you ready for it?
Sharing with others department, are you ready for it?

At first, i was a bit shock because my dept have to share with IT and accounts dept.
For me if share with IT i can accept it but accounts..hmmm We are totally open..not only to the same floor people but also to others floor. In other word we are open to public.

The reason is because
1) IT dept is here then my dept Central Admin.
2) Bulk photocopy is at central admin
3) office boy is at admin..
4) coordinate of incoming & outgoing letter either by hand letter, normal post or courier is all at admin
5) etc...

Imagine it...

Every time my dept is crowded and like morning market.
Imagine what you do everyone is watching.
Imagine you can listen to all kinds of noise (people talking + photocopy machine sound) Can you imagine it???
After sometimes you will adapt to it But don't expect you will sit in quiet working area. this is what they expected.
When your voice a bit louder..hmmm How to have quiet working area when your working area is open?

One thing for sure is still not really open working environment... Still old fashion way they practice..

What i learn in this kind of situation is that you must help each other, don't be too calculative.
You must firm on decision and fierce else people take advantage on it.

If I can...

If I Can... If i can turn back time... If i can hold you more longer... If i can tell you... If i can say... If i can look through your heart... If i can feel your pain.. If i can do the first step...

If i can... If i can hold back the tears.. If i can stop the pains If i can....

Big corp...Am i ready for it. PART 2

While working in this company i really learned a lot of thing.
One, learn how the bosses doing business.
Two, Get to know how and why those Dato's and Tan Sri's secretary/pa characters and behave.
Three, how to communicate with different level of people.
Four, how to control my temper and behavior.
Five, who are my colleagues,friends and enemy.
Six, learn what is honest, trust, jokes, liar.
Seven....emmm.
Eight, how to please to "agency" not to create enemy.
Nine, can you be friendly, helpful, kind and busybody ???
Ten, i am who i am..Don't like i go.

Indeed it really open my eyes to see how those well known people do business.
How they have to deal with the some "corrupt agency". How they have to spend money to those "muka tak malu" so called minister or their event, wedding and etc. I only believe 50-50 when people say that dealing with those gov. ministry is not easy. You must willing to spend and don't create enemy with them. Indeed is true and is getting worst.
Even some Malaysia artist/singer send in sponsorship letter and worst is using 'royal' name on it.. shame on those artist/singer.
If you want to be producer for anything like theatre, pls make sure you have enough RM before start doing your project.
Some artist ask for fund/loan and then monthly paid back.
i salute those people than those using so called VVIP name for sponsorship and donation.

In term of your boss,either manager or Head Of Department,
If you get a good bos, you as secretary nor staff will have a good day and life in your job and work. If you get not a good boss..than life is different. This where we can see and feel the tense and happy environment.

Like Gasing life is full of spin,is either spin smoothly or the other way..
Being based at central admin, almost everything we handle. Multi tasking and multi purpose.
Be a fast learner, fast thinker but don't be to busybody.. Don't be helpful or kind, people don't like you especially those senior staff who always have negative thought.(is based on my experience).
hmmm totally the other side of me.
i paid the price for being helpful and kind.
What i get..HOD say i busybody others people work and chit chat here and there?
Do i?? Do i??

A Day Before..

A day before you fly, we have a fight. A fight that i try to avoid it. A fight i hope that never happen. But it happened.

I just need you to be honest and true, but it did not happen. The more lie, the more pain you left in my heart. The pain is too much for me to hold it anymore. A day without smile A day without kiss A day without dinner A day without goodbye A day with PAIN and TEARS in my eyes and heart

AM I TOO THIN??

Almost all my colleagues and friends say i getting thinner? Not slimmer,meh...?? wonder which part is thinner? Almost a year they keep say that until now. Wonder am i so chubby or fatter before that? Worst is the bus driver even say i look smaller "Amoi, u nampak makin kecik" Huhh...? Today bump into one aunty at KFC.The aunty i always saw in bus and have chit chat with her. Aunty also say i so thin already. What you eat or taken?You take slimming pills is it? As i not in right mind (hungry and thinking of others thing)i just say ya..ya.. After i get back to my table...all of sudden i think back what did aunty ask me just now.. Gosh... What wrong with me..Where got i ever take slimming pills or whatever pills? fuhhh...... When my mind is not right...

Big corp...Am i ready for it. PART 1

April 2011 I joined a well known big company in Malaysia.Involved in construction, hotel & etc. That time i was thinking this is a big company with stable and steady although what they offered to me is lower that those small company offer me. That time my heart also in dilemma either to accept this job or not? After some consideration i go for it. I just say to myself...just go with the flow. Indeed, working in a corporation world is not easy. Must has hard,strong desire and patient. It really open my eyes and mind to see all kinds of people and character. In this corporation world, you have to know how to play games and politic. Why i say that? To survive in this company, you either have to be two (2) face or be yourself. But all come with risk and must be ready for it.

Too long i left my blog...

Hmmm..it seem that i left my blog for sometimes... Is not that i forget about it.. Is just that every time i want to write i have no mood..